I have no idea....

I simply do not have any idea on....

• what to dress during Junior's Welcoming Night? Is either option goes with my colour of dress and theme, or it goes according to my heels. So?
  
• what to give my buddy? In fact, I was plan to buy her a cactus and other cutie stuff (which I don't think she is that type of girl who is keen on this kind of things, seriously. I mean, she is sort of independent, at least I feel so), but after that I just simply bring down that idea when Janis laugh at me about the chicken leg cactus. Lolz. So, I have no way to start about my present yet.
  
• whether to stick to my plan, go for the tonsil removal surgery or not. I promised my mum to go for the surgery already, but then I will have to sacrifice my holiday time which was only one week time after 10 weeks of studying. Ohno~
• whether I will be able to survive until I am on the way back to Penang with only RM 16 in my purse now as I am too lazy to go all the way to the ATM machine for the money. Guess will only enough for my Taxi fare to the bus terminal. So have to ikat perut this few days.

In the mean time, I am having a dilemma in whether to skip TITAS or not? If I am not going to, should I back in the middle of the class? T.T

100th post

I just came back from Pavilion and I saw a message in my other phone which is for my Maxis number..

The message goes like this...
" Amy, it is advisable to withdraw enough cash for shopping and keep ATM card in purse rather than swiping cause pick pocket will shop for Raya too.Take good care of yourself k? Decide to go for the surgery already? You grow up already, ma know you will be able to decide whats the best for yourself. Tired yesterday after preparing "fishcake" for you, that's why didn't call you. Bought a pair of scholl sandal for grandma, over budget. So sms will do temporarily? Don't tell grandma. Love, mum."

I read it, and all of sudden, without any reason, I felt my tears....

As I go through the message, I soon to realise, how lucky am I to get her as my mum.

It reminded me how struggle she was to learn mandarin and then teach me when I was in standard 1, how worried she was when I was admitted in the hospital despite I was already 16 that time... and...

HOW I MISS HER WHEN I WAS ONLY HUNDRED KILOMETERS AWAY FROM HOME!!!

She has always been the one I can trust and I believe in no secrets among us will be the best way in strengthening the bond between us.

I just miss her more than ever....

2 more days....

Is all out of expectations

Give you guys a little of refreshment, Tada~~~~~~, finally, a photo / picture. *Claps*

From the front, Obviously, the big face ~ ME, Hooi Yee, Grace, Jia Ning, and the couple I mentioned in the previous post, Yi Ling and Alex.

Ya, I just noticed that my blog was too dead and full of words, so decided to start my new post with a recent photo of mine. The photo presented above was taken during the Seminar Pendidikan Palang Mearh Dan Undang - Undang Kemanusiaan Antarabangsa Organized by Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia (BSMM).From  6.30 am to 5.00 pm for the seminar. Learn anything? I guess so. At least till the moment I type this post, I still manage to remember Sir Henry Dunant. Konvensyen Geneva, at least. But what pissed me off was, no lunch was provided and they did not even inform us to bring food our self. The worst, I don't use to take breakfast. Sobx. But overall is fine and was definitely worth for my time in attending. *grin*


Next...

I joined a debate tournament and here is the picture of all of the junior debaters, seniors and adjudicators. And yes, I am having so much fun in debating. Nothing much to add on as i mentioned it during the n- previous post.

See if you can spot me?

Continued...

Good news from me, I have a super duper good buddy in university. I mean she is really GOOD. Almost perfect for me. At least somehow at some point I wish to have the same achievement, attitude like her, which is kindda impossible right now. obviously. But never mind, everything takes time right? But she is really good, and yet I don't know how to describe. Appreciate appreciate...

Guess will end my post with a sad case, first end module examination result released already, better than what I expected at least, but not as good as I should achieving. Get what I mean?

Work harder, pray harder, PLAY harder as well... One more week and I am home. *wide grin*

Memories Lane

Yesterday he called me at about 4 am after received my message, complaining that I can't asleep despite lying on the bed since 2 am, sigh! And, yes,we have about 1 hour conversation. It was like a big gift to me considered he was so busy recently for his activities as well as his studies. So in order to be a good girlfriend, I tried my best in compromising with the hope that this relationship will last long. Seriously, I don't have the sense of security and faith in this relationship, at least not until his phone call yesterday.

In fact, I was always envy about Yi Ling for having such a perfect guy to take care of her, to be extremely nervous when she was sick, and so on. Then on the other way round, I think about him. Sigh again. Just feel that things never be in the way they should after our university life started and I might be just too afraid in losing him. even though I like to tell others how imperfect he is, Contradictory huh?

Furthermore, friends around me seems to have relationship problems lately, just like adding salt into my wound, my faith fade away even faster and EASIER. Sometimes, 4 years relationship will just ended up nothing, no matter how many effort you have put in. Another sigh. I saw long lasting one in distance relationship but at the same time, I saw failure too. Maybe my mum was right after all, don't have to bother about future problems, when they come, you will know a way in solving them.

Ok, what I mentioned in the above was before his phone call, but after that, those silly little things that i always worried about no longer seems to be a problem to me already, at least for this short period of time. He help me in gaining the faith and trust.

Just now during the red crescent talk and on the way back to kl from bangi, I curi-curi look at the couple with the personal score 1:1, Ya, Alex may be a perfect guy, but guess only to Yi Ling. For me? I think I will start to be OK with who he is right now, or maybe will start to like who he is in the near future.

So Amy, Stop complaining la!!!!!!!!!! Ya, trying to.......

The Love That Never End # 1

I never believe that one can be seriously in love once he/she get into a relationship, not to mention love at first sight. It is rare.

It is going to be 9 months since we were together. I never realise that I can be so serious in this relationship. But then the more serious I was, the more afraid I am. We have not really contact each other in the last couple week, I mean the serious contact, he always busy with his stuff. It is still consider ok if he is the only one, at least I can tolerate, but then what if my lesson start next week? I have been thinking a lot recently, friends around me keep on telling me that have a little faith, when there is a will, there is a way etc. Some times things just don't happen accordingly and conditions just wouldn't allow us to make arrangement. We have so long path yet to be go, If conditions continue like this, I don't know what will turn up next.

I hope that what I worried now will not turn out to be real and one day we will read this together and you will realise how silly I am.

I love you, which i never did to others before.

Is Just Another Turning Point

You know what, people once told me that university life is FUN whereby you can experience a lot of things that u never did before. But till this moment, I still can't find any reason to love the place where I am going to be for the next 5 years, seriously. What I feel here is tired, tension and tired tension. Nah~ Perhaps things will change when my lesson start next week, we will see how.

I am currently staying in the forth floor, again my room is the nearest to the stair. Believe it or not, my room was always meant to be near to the stair case and I certainly love that. Haha. The other thing is, I can see KLCC here!!!!! Hoho.... You know, the twin towers will blink at night,(Is it blink by the way? Nah~ who cares?) make me feel like Christmas. Santa Claus is coming to town! Okok, I know I know, is too early for Christmas.

What else? Others was usual than usual.

I miss my Family and Him a lot....
With lots of loves from me....

Believe

I just back from watching Letter To Juliet.

It is entirely personal preference whether the movie worth for the time or not. But to me, It brings back my beliefs in eternity. Whether it is family's love, love between couple or may it between friends, I choose to believe they will last forever. Just as what Sophie wrote in the reply, never let 'what if' overtake everything. Instead of thinking something that may not be happen or making unnecessary assumption and prediction, why don't we just go for iy? At least you make no regrets. Remember you are not always given a chance to decide all over again...

It is never too late for everything, the same applied to be loved. It is beyond everything when it comes to love...

Believe in what should be is a wonderful thing after all...

P/s something real is something we can't see...

Specially dedicated to Calvin

Hey, I just realise that you will be leaving Penang soon...

Well, it is the fact that we only met once, and somehow we became friends in net whereby u taught me English, Sofware, Hardware, be my listener when I am having problems with my friends, and the list goes on. Emm, maybe thats nothing to you and we seems like lost contact for a year perhaps? But, I do treat you as my friend. Remember I told you that sometimes it is best to share your problems with a stranger as he/ she wouldn't betray you by revealing it to someone you know? Till now, I am still stick with that "theory" and for sure, you are the best but closest stranger to me. I lile ur maturity.

back to the topic, honestly, feel complicated when I get to know you are leaving, but think further, it seems to be no effect to me right? i still can chat with you in MSN and blog right?
So,sincerely, all the best in your studies. who knows one day I will accidentally bump into you? Good luck...

爱情真复杂

友达以上，恋人未满，又与暧昧有何分别？

与其在那儿犹柔寡断，倒不如不顾一切，勇敢争取所爱。

这事本来就与我无关，也不想与它扯上任何关系。

圆你之梦，我倒愿意。


可是你殃及我这池鱼， 你就休想独善其身，我更不会坐以待毙

唉，爱情真复杂。

Stories Continue

Well, it has been a long time since my last post. I hope nobody miss me.

Ok, is 2010 now, a brand new year.  Recalling what I have done last year, weather is good or bad, is a past anyway, but I hope I do make no regrets. Starting from January last year, I worked; I got my driving license and drive for my very first time, I got my SPM result, disappointed for not getting JPA despite my hard attempt and out of options, I traveled south alone to further my studies, been involved in a rather complicated relationship, met tones of new friends, learn to communicate well with other races, fasting for the first time, wearing Baju Kurung, learn Johor Robik etc… is a wonderful year actually. It will only be part of my life / memory after all.

Continue from my last post…

After the test, I went for a trip to KL, memories of this, Here it is I met Chun Tze there, As usual, I keep on challenging his patience ( I didn’t do it intentionally k?) and he finally show his dissatisfaction… ended up, he get angry. Speechless. I don’t really know the reason, but somehow at some point I do act like this in front of him. My style perhaps? He is the one who teach me use cheese to mix with maggi, nice.

School reopen then, get my MUET test and catch up my syllabus. Painted my room for the 1^st time ( force to, of course), join for fashion show, and participated in fashion marching ( my block is the champion o),  gain a lot in chemistry race, sit for my mid semester test, and….. here I am, enjoying my holiday now… don’t have much description, let the pictures tell the stories. But.......... Some probelm here, picture cant be uploaded, so next time la

 

P/s   I actually plan to change my theme colour, but all of all, I still prefer black to other colour. I am ok with this theme, is just that, I don’t like the big word “gossip girl” there. If the time allowed me to do so, I will find a better one later. Temporarily, take this first considered I am a big fan of it. XOXO..

Just get my MUET result today. Speechless….

Tagged

Considered I have nothing to post recently, I will just post this thing out. Tagged by Louis.

001. Real name: Amy Khoo
002. Nickname(s): Duck Mee, Meh Meh
003. Age: 18
004. Horoscope: Capricorn
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: A lot, don't know which to write
007. Middle School: SMJK CDK
o08. High School: None
009. College school: Johor Matriculation College
010. Hair colour: Browny black
011. Long or short: Long
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health freak: -
016. Drink or Smoke: Hehe
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Once
018. Eat or Drink: Both
019. Piercings: 8
020. Tattoos: None
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social in Penang / initially, definitely anti social in JMC
022. Right or Left: Right
023. First piercing: 4
024. First relationship: Dec 07
025. First Best Friend: Form 1
026. First Award: Maths comp
027. First Kiss:
028. First Pet: dog?
029. First Big Vacation: KL
030. First Love at First Sight: Nope
031. First Big Birthday: 18
032. First Surgery:
033. First sport you joined: Hockey
034. Orange or Apple Juice: Apple
035. Rock or Rap: -
036. Country or Scream: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: BS
39. Night or Day: Night
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
41. TV or Internet: Internet
042. PlayStation or xbox: PS
043. Kiss or hug: Both
044. Iguana or turtle: None
045. Spider or bee: None
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: Limewire
048. Soccer or baseball: None
049. Eating: Now?
050. Drinking: Again?
051. Excitement level: Okok
052. I'm about to: Bloghopping
053. Listening to: nothing
054. Plan for today: Is night time now
055. Waiting for: Confirmation from him
056. Energy level: Low
057. Thinking of someone: Yup, him
058. Want kids: Definitely not in the near future
059. Want to get married: Not for this moment
060. When: The time come
061. How many kids do you want: 2
062. Any name in mind: Never think about it yet
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Nurse
064. Careers in mind: Doctor
065. Mellow future or wild: Wild
066. Something you would never try: Cant think of one
067. When do you want to die: When I am satisfied with what i have gone through

Which is better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)?
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny: Funny
070. Shorter or Taller: Taller
071. Protective or Caring: Both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: None
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Arms
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: None
077. Muscular or Normal: Normal
078. Kissed a stranger: Nope.
079. Broken a bone: Supposedly Nope
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Nope
081. Ran away from home: -
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: -
083. Killed somebody: -
084. Broken someone's heart: Yep
085. Had your heart broken: Yep
086. Been arrested: -
087. Cried when someone died: Yup
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: nope
089. Yourself: Want to be the best despite knowing i will fail
090. Miracles: Hope so
091. Love at first sight: Nope
092. Heaven: Believe in its existence
093. Santa Claus: Belive when i was young
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people

Tag:
The 1st 5 guys/girls who read this/ whoever want