Amy in depress

Have a very big fight with my very best friend until I don’t know how to handle it. Somehow feeling down, depress, sad etc. Cry for don’t know how many times. Don’t know who to turn to. Helpless. I just don’t like the feelings. At last, as usual, we just pretend nothing happen. I know problems wont solved until we faced it but none of us was willing to face it. She dislike me but not hating me. So do I. What should I do in school when I meet her? A fake smile? Act like I nothing happen? The scar is still there and no one can cure it. 5 years friendship gone then which I feel is not worth it. What to do? It is fruitless if only I am the one who put effort in it. Haiz,what will be will be. Sometime, I keep wondering, what’s best friend for? Aren’t they suppose to be by your side no matter what happen? How come every things goes the opposite way in my life? Gerr, whatever la.

By the way, from now on, I am going to put my every single post in private which means only my contacts will know about it. Everything here will be my secret. I don’t think anyone of you will spread. I thrust you guys and I need someone to share with. Here is my diary and I wont allowed any one to control what I said, what I did. You have no right to control me. I think here is the only space I had. Other than that, I don’t know where myself is  Life is so tired. Is more then enough to kill myself.

Amy in depress.

 

Am I Lucky Enough for That???

Gosh!!!!

Fell down on the side of the road when I try to avoid a sudden car…

Proton I think..

Not that bad hopefully..

Just strained my ankle and have a few real bad bruise and cut on my leg and hand..

I don’t know whose fault is this and I don’t care…

Luckily there is a aunty nearby and she is kind enough to help me…

P/s, she told me a lot of the danger of the road and scolded the driver I think…

My mood wasn’t good enough to pay fully attention to what she said..

Paiseh to her la..

Between, is still a bit pain when the cut is in contact with water…

Anyway, is a nice experience for me..

So that I will be really careful enough on the road..

Is still a part of my memory…

P/s luckily is after my Hutan Lipur trip and the cut wasnt serious, wakaka..

 

The picture below taken from me, lame ya???

 

After taking bath...

Taken within he first minute felt down... 

 

Farewell

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Day

Finally, everything back to normal already…

As usual will be simple….

 

I went to school this morning for the stock checking and recording…

Glad that the discipline teacher didn’t  see me as I am wearing slipper and didn’t tie my hair (my rubber band broke), otherwise, she is gonna nag for another 10 minutes again, I really cant stand it…

 

By the way, Hui Ching promises me that she is gonna fetch me to the school every Monday because  she feels that I am pity enough to stand in front of the stage if I was late to school. In fact, I just late for once in Monday la…

Never mind, as long as she willing to do me a favor….

 

After the stock checking, I went to have a hair cut..

Haiz, the hair length is not that I asked for it…

Too short..

I need to wait another 6 months so that my hair will back to normal again and  long enough for me to perm my hair..

I want to make the lower part of my hair curly..

But seems like I my plan has been disrupted…

Dunno la, maybe curly hairs not suited me and that’s why the god wont let me have this..

Wakaka,,,

 

Later on, I start my homework which more than enough to kill me..

Especially the Chinese correction for the 名句, 100 times  and been written in 毛笔字in the newspaper..

Actually, this punishment is same as what we had last year but just the number of 名句increase from 50 times to 100…

Really don’t dare to imagine what is going to happen in my final examination…

Luckily I just need to correct 1 of the question..

But still need a few hours…

Next, additional maths, modern maths, chemistry, physics…

The others will be continue tomorrow…

Wakaka….

lazy la….

 

The next problem is..

My mum said she decide to send my sis to “sekolah kebangsaan” next year..

Final decision…

Cauz she feels that my sis cant cope another extra subject, Chinese…

And as usual, she feels that Chinese is useless but English as the universal language, ligua franca, international language etc is much more important..

So, she inform my sis..

I thought it was ok to my sis since she didn’t show any objection and I don’t want to have any argument with my mum for something which is non of my business and is not in my control…

But out of my expectation, my sis come to me and ask me to tell my mum what is in her mind..

She want to learn Chinese and scare of the communication problem...

She ask me to persuade my mum in the given time..

Omg!!!

I know my mum very well. Once she decided something, she wont change it…

In fact, she hates discussing this topic…

I am pretty sure she really thinks about that many times before she make this decision…

Obviously, she loves my sis…

Plus, I really don’t like arguing with her as she was quite stubborn..

Yaya..

Maybe ask my sis to tell my mum what she thinks  right??

It was useless and will ended up my sis crying then..

Just like the camp motivasi UPSR which my mum think that it was useless and wont give any help, it was a wastage of time, money and energy although my sis really wanted to go…

At last, my sis staying at home watching DVD with me and sms her friends to know the details..

Pity her..

And many other same cases happening to me and my siblings…

Mostly cause of transportation and money problem + the pressure from the teacher which make the attendance to be compulsory..

But I am luckily enough to have a good result…

So, my mum cant stop me from doing anything…

So, what to do???

心领

心领

作曲:邓智伟
填词:陈诗慧
演唱:林峰 钟嘉欣

男:或许恋爱都只有
烟火那刻的璀灿
如此简单快乐不多于一晚
内心总有限束缚
怎可不惊叹
然后发现情或许转淡
女:越讨好你就换来
伤心痛哭多一晚
如此贪玩厌旧贪新我心淡
是否早注定体贴
都不会得到称赞
怕热爱已退减
合:谁愿稀罕这爱情
从未甘心因我转性
其实清楚这过程
就算牺牲不会高兴已心领
男:什么恋爱的感觉
始终有它的限期
随心欢喜放任心中不止你
受种种责备逼我放肆敷衍你
其实已尽全力喜欢你
女:并不必暗示感觉
一早已熄多得你
从今天起我亦不稀罕等你
独身的趣味
不怕即使抱拥得空气
我亦懒去记起

男: never meant to be cruel,
never meant to hurt you...
hey hey hey hey
男:其实清楚(女:其实清楚这过程)
男:我知无谓去缠住我(女:就算牺牲不会高兴)
无谓再去打听
合:已心领
合:无谓发现情或许转淡
无谓发现情或许转淡

Random

Just visted Yvonne’s blog…

Omg!!!!

She was extremely beautiful, pretty, mature, rich etc…

And what I decide is…

(a)    I wanna keep fit

(b)   I wana take good care of my face

(c)    I wana grow taller (although is out of my control, never mind, I will then wear a pair of high heel shoes may be, the 7 cm one, wakaka..)

(d)   I wana look completely perfect in both physical and mental, as what other people say, there isn’t any girl looks ugly in this world, only lazy girls look ugly, make up make perfect..)

(e)    I am gonna work hard for all my dreams come true….

(f)   I wanna enjoy myself now and do what i like, no more forcing please!

 

P/s  This time, when I say it, I mean it. Really can’t stand myself when looking in the mirror…!!!!!!!

Besides, I get most of my result in this few days…

Some were ok while some were not..

But mostly ok I think..

Haha, as what I expected, my chemistry and history get the highest..

But surprising that my moral and physics get the highest too..

And my add maths, is much more than what I expected…

Wakaka…

Happy…..

But still my English and my Malays paper..

I really don’t understand..

I did put a lot of effort in this two subject k???

How come it didn’t show any improvement..

Especially English..

I hate it..

The discipline teacher just talk to me this morning (not only me la, of course..)

She said the school wont give me the cert if I continue to get “markah dimerit” and ask me not to be late for school again..

Lolz..

Is not my fault la..

There isn’t any public bus for me in that particular time, what you expect me to do?

Walk to school a?

Swt!!!

Mum said, no happy hour for me anymore..

From now on, I am gonna prepare myself for all the challenges..(if I will listen to..)

Wakaka..

By the way, wish me luck for the interview tomorrow..

All the best to myself..

Holiday

Just back from Genting…

Overall, still ok I think…

Have fun there although raining..

The photo I uploaded in the friendster already…

Shirlynn bought a lot of “heart” shape chocolate since there is a specific shop sell chocolate love in shape and of course, the items sold there was really expensive…

And I am glad that she told me that her boyfriend love that…

 

The next day, Tuesday, I went to CLHS campfire…

RM 20 for a bread + I miss my physics tuition, total RM 30…

My mum was really mad of that…

But I do enjoy myself that night..

This was the first time I dance under the rain…

It was sooooooooooooo nice….

Except for the non-stop songs changing…

My school get quite a number of prizes…

Haha, proud to be CDK girls…

And I lose my voice the next day cause of being active supporter…

But some how we didn’t get the best supporters prize, sobx sobx..

The camp ended  at 11pm and I walk back with shirlynn and phaik kuan..

Shirlynn surfing the net while I take the bath…

Later on. Her dad took me to her house since there will be a camp on the next day and I need to prepare all d cooking items…

Belive t or not, I cooked…

Slept at 3 am that nite..

 

Wake up at 6am, arrive at school at 6.45 am…

Need to dance for the competition…

I was really unlucky enough to be chosen…

At last, it turn out to be a joke cause of i dance a bit faster than others…

Haiz…

Phaik Kuan even teased me that she just realized that I can dance as fast as I speak…!!!!

Between, Phaik Kuan get the best member and my team get the best overall..

Wakaka, congrats me la…

 

Friday morning, I was been locked in the house cause of my brother took my key out…

There wasn’t any  key left..

There was no other way left besides called my mum..

She back from the office just to open the door for me..

Of course, I get scolded by her and the teacher cauz late school….

When I back, I was asking “who took y key?”

Well, nobody admit it..

But when I back from tuition, the key suddenly appear in my uniform pocket..

Really ridiculous..

And my mum still protecting my brother and asking me not to blame my bother although he admit he took my key…

I am angry not because of I been locked in d house but why my mum acting like this…

Is not the first time either…

Never mind…

Is over either…

I really wish I can grow up faster…

 

Survey

 Would you marry for money?
_emm, depends. It is still better live with money than without rite?
2. Have you had braces?
_yup.
3. Could you live without a computer?
_emm, ya. When there is no assignment from the teacher.
4. If you could live in any past time period, where would it be?
--when adam and
5. Do you drink enough water?
_certainly nope.  
6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take ’em off?
_take em off
7. What are your favorite fruits?
_apple
8. What is your favorite place to visit?
_ hong kong, london
9. Are you photogenic?
_nup
10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
_black and white
11. Why do you take surveys?
_ just fooling around

12. Do you drink alcohol?
_no
13. What is the most beautiful language?
_English
14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
_Maybe. Depends on who is d 1 who kiss me
15. What do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
_depends on mood
16. Do you want to live until you’re 100 yrs old?
_nope. That’s more than enough.
17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
_of coz
19. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off?
_on
20. Do you believe in magic?
_nope
22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
_nope
23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn’t real?
_emm, Forgot.
24. Do you write poems?
_no
25. Do you snore?
_no.
26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
_sides.
27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
_neither.i don’t like dogs
28. Are you basically a happy person?
_nope
29. Are you tired?
_yeah
30. Do you drink anything with caffeine?
_only durig exam period. I hate coffee.
31. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?
_5


1.A friend whose name starts with 'K'
- Kar wen

2. Last mall you went to?
- Prangin Mall

3. What's your post shoutout?
- nothing

4. Current mood?
- Moody

5. What did you do last night?
- sleep

6. How many hours of sleep do you usually have?
- depends
7. What words do you say a lot?
- 无聊

8. What was the last thing you drank?
- Bali sui kam beng

9. Do you watch TV?
- yup
10. Music you're into?
- lately nothing. haha

11. Do you have school tomorrow?
- no.

12. Do you have a nickname?
- yeah

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- err. depends

14. Who's the youngest one in the family?
- my sister

15. Best movie you've seen in the past weeks?
- prnce Caspian. Maybe

16. Next place you'll go?
- sunshine farlim.
17. Next time you're going out?
- sunday.

18. Next thing you're going to save money for?
- my studies

19. Next person you are going to call?
- I don't know =/. to call or not to call.

20. Fav song/s as for now?
- too many.

21. chocolate cake or strawberry ice cream?
- choc

22. What song is currently playing?
- No air

23. Any pets? what are their names?
- no wayyy

24. Which do u prefer? jollibee or mcd?
- Mcd

25. Wendy's or kfc?
- KFC

26. Ever broken someone's heart?
- yes.

27. Ever had your heart broken?
- emm, nt exactly

28. What's inside your pocket?
- d cover of a sweet

29. Fav past time?
- when i was 2. haha.

30. best place you'd rather be?
- my room

The 'Deep Stuff' Survey.
1. Do you think you were well raised?
yeah.

2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
yes.

3. How do you handle stress?
depends

4. How would you spend your last day alive?
I wana taste all d delicious food in d world

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
yaya. wakaka

6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which side would you go to?
I will stay in the junction. Bt mostly true love

7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with which one would you choose?
emm, well I pick ad. Mum.

8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose?
Is dat a question?

9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member?
nope

10. What is the worst thing you've ever done that your parents DON'T know about?
OMG! Too many ad.

The love stuff:
1. Do you think you know the meaning of true love?
no.

2. The last time you kissed someone... was it someone you see yourself kissing
again?
huh?

3. When AND/OR WHO was your last kiss?
my bear

4. What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
Trust.

7 . Your most recent ex... you guys still friends?
emm, dunno whether it is?

8. If your parents didn't like the person you were dating.. would you lose' em?
depends hw deep I in love with dat person.

9. Do you see yourself ever being with someone you've been with before?
huh?

10. If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
dunno..,I like my best friends more then my lover


The this or that stuff:
1. Die in a fire or drown?
drown

2. Be with someone cute and a jerk or ugly and kind?
depends how cute, how jerky, how ugly, or how kind. haha

3. Eat fried worms or chocolate ants?
eat fried worms. ants spicy.

4. If you lived a disaster, would you rather have been on titanic and lived to tell the story or in Armageddon and died saving the world?
Titanic. I wanna try the you jump I jump thing besides cn experience d true love stuff

5. If your boyfriend/girlfriend didn't like your best friend and told you to be with them or your best friend, who would you chose?
best friend

6. Would you rather be ditched or live with ditching someone?
neither

7. Kids then marriage or marriage then kids?
kids after marriage of course

8. If you had to choose between being blind or deaf which would you pick?
Deaf.

9. Would you rather live in a tiny apartment with 5 other people or a huge house by yourself that you felt was haunted?
tiny.

10. Would you rather date someone who had a car or a job?
job.

The RANDOM stuff:
1. Do you kick it with the same people always or new people?
same.
2. How many piercings do you have?
8. that’s why I had a lot of discipline pro at school cauz of d prefect dunno hw 2 b considered.
3. What is your greatest accomplishment?
none.
4. Do you see yourself as a "good" person?
nupe.
5. Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Yes.
7. Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples houses or have them at yours?
stay at others. I dun lyk kipig my room
8. HONESTLY- have you ever wanted to watch a scary movie with someone JUST to have an excuse to be close to them?
I hvnt went to a cinema with a guy.
9. Is your family the.. "eat dinner at the table" type.. or the.. "get your food and eat wherever you want type
2^nd type


1.Does anyone know your password to your friendster besides yourself?

♪ nup

2.What was the last thing you ordered at mcdonalds?
♪ ice cream
3.Are you an emotional person?
♪ only at home. I m d goody goody type outside. Fake rite??
4.Do you like your name?
♪ yeah
5.Do you believe in love at first sight?
♪ same ques as above. lol.
6.Ever felt jealous of your friend?
♪ yeah.
7.What was the last thing you did?
♪ chatting through msn n interviewing ppl.
8.Who is right next to you?
♪ no one
9.Who were the last persons you ate with?
♪ my dad n sis
10.What song are you listening to right now?
♪ whats you got
11.Hows the weather right now?
♪ okay
12.Last person who called you today?
♪ my dad
13.Last time you cried?
♪ yesterday.
14.Last song you sang?
♪ red little indian
15.Do you like anyone?
♪ yeah.
16.Lost a friendship over something stupid?
♪ yes. =/
17.Last beverage you drank?
♪ water.

18.Last food you ate?
♪ bak chang
19.What did you do last night?
♪ sleep
20.Faked being sick to miss school?
♪ yaya. During exam period
21.What time did you wake up today?
♪ 8.15 am in which I suppose awkes at 6.40 am. Dun ever mentioned it again, I late 4 my Chinese litreture class.
22.Last person you talked to?
♪ mum
23.Last person you made fun of?
♪ none.
24.What are you wearing right now?
♪ con
25.Are you too quiet to ask anyone out?
♪ yeah. hahahaha
26.What is the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
♪ eyes.
27.Where are you right now?
♪ living room.
28.What date and day is it?
♪ 7th june ; saturday.
29.Did you go anywhere today?
♪ yaya. Sunshine farlim. I met phaik kuan there
30.What did you do there?
♪ shooping of corse.
31.Where else were you going today?
♪ school
32.Are you watching tv?
♪ no.
33.Are you mature or immature?
♪ 50/50
34.Are you closer to your mom or dad?
♪ mom.
35.When was you last kiss?
♪ justnow. For my bear
36.What school do you go to?
♪ cdk
37.Whats the most annoying thing people say to you?
♪ brainless
38.Do you like music?
♪ yes.
39.Do you want to get married?
♪ dunno. Juz discuss dis dtuff with my mum n gt scolded. wakaka
40.To whom?
♪ true love. If I cn succeed in fnding. Wish me luck